Little news, this is the last journal before the comeback journal.

I was going to make a comeback in this week, but I realized that one of my most painful days is coming... 9th May (if you don't know what I mean, read this [link] and this [link]). I know that day will give me extremely much unbearable pain which I most surely cannot handle, and that's why I don't want to come back here until I've gotten over that. I won't open my laptop on that day to prevent all meaningless pain, and before that I'll need a lot of support... The pain has already started to come out a little, and my heart already hurts. I know it'll be hurting more and more each day, and...I'm honestly scared.

I'll be going to London at 13th May (it's optional trip for 2nd graders) and I'll be there about a week. It's coming in a good time, because it will help me get better from day 9. If some of you (who I know at least in some point) want to meet me IRL there, I'd be glad to. I didn't want to come back before that just so that I could leave again, it wouldn't feel nice. After that trip I'll come back, I promise

Thank you for those comments in my previous journal, it really cheered me up.
That's all for now, wish me luck to handle one of my most painful day ever...I shall log off now again.